I'm, I miss and I want......

I dont know what to write, i dont know what to say.
I'm lonely.
I'm phetatic.
I'm useless.
I'm nobody.
I'm feeling bad.
I'm bored.
I'm ridiculus.
I'm mad.
I'm fed up for everything.
I'm hoping for something, but for sure i don't deserved it.
I'm daydreaming.
I'm jealousy about people around me.
I'm ugly. I have this eye bag that i hate it so much.
I'm in mess.
I'm clumsy.
I miss my old days.
I miss my friends.
I miss to have a boyfriend.
I miss my high school.
I miss my buddy.
I miss everything.
I want to become younger.
I want to enjoy my life.
I want to be success.
I want to be stood up.
I want people care about me.
I want somebody beside me.
I want to become rich.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be style.
I want to become myself.But i hate myself.
I want people hear what i'm trying to say.
I want to return back time.
I want to take back all my words.
I want to be close to somebody
I want to be love.
Shit. wtf.
I just cannot have what i really want.
I just become what i'm till the end of my life. -n-