He is too perfect!

Hello,

I've been covering myself from disaster that i create.. hehe.. erm.. who doesn't want someone who is Mr Right? Everytime when people ask me, when will i start dating? I just simple said, 'erm.. no yet la.. haven't meet Mr Right. I want religious, charming, taller than me, good looking, educated person, treat me well, not too dark( just nice), muscular body, stable career, sweet, romantic, have style and a lots more..' And guess what? i have meet that person, and at the same time, he show some interest with me. Damn.. Who will not fell with that type of person? And he's too perfect from my point of view.. But then.. think back, who am i?? Am i that perfect to be with a perfect guy?? I'm nobody.. and i dont deserve that guy.. i'm really opposite with him, physically opposite. I'm not pretty, really dont know how to dress up, not sweet, plum, short, argh!! People will definitely compare us..

"Tgk ar aweq dier buruk gile, balak hensem. Camne la mamat hensem tu nak kat pompuan huduh... eiii.."

Imagination of what people will say about me.. hikhik.. and went i think back, maybe i'm just syok sendiri..he never fell on me. perasan beb.. harhar.. What to do?? dont be too choosy, see what is in front u.. who is willing to accept u as u are, who is willing to love u more than himself. Be good to the person are being good to u.. Dont be like me.. never appreciate what happens to myself, and kept on holding and waiting for someone that not even exist..

--dead..

What did i've done to deserve all this.....

I try my best to be there when my family needs me.
I try my best to spends a really good time with my frens.
I try my best to help all people around me.
I try my best not to make people dissapointed.
I try my best not depend on others.
I try my best to be a good listener.
I try my best not to lied.
I try my best to be friends with everybody.
I try my best to make people laugh.
I try my best not to hurt people heart.
I try my best not to make people angry.
I try my best not be angry with people.
I try my best to be patient.
I try my best to kept secret.
I try my best to be somebody to lay on.
I try my best to give a good opinion.
I try my best to be brave.
I try my best to trust people.
I try my best to a good teamates.
I try my best to be proud of.
I try my best to not swearing.
I try my best to like the people who likes me.
I try my best to understand people.
I try my best to be useful in every aspect.
I try my best to be good in academics.
I try my best to be good in sports.
I try my best to not be moody.
I try my best to reply all sms/calls.
I try my best not to make people cry.
I try my best to make people happy.
I try my best to be a good friend.
.....

But what did i've done to deserved all the bad things happens to me?? ...........

I wish i can turn back time...

I'm alone in my room, switch on the TV but doesn't really watch it. Open books but not really read it. Buy some food but do not eat it. What the hell happening or bothering me lately? Have you ever felt that before? Actually i'm kept wondering what is the things that make me felt this way. what i have done? I think all this thing might fade away after i meet my close friends. But actually it only for a short time. But when go back be alone, this thing kept bothering me. Actually there's a bad thing that i've done, and when i told this to my friends, it doesn't felt relieve at all, it makes me felt worse. I'm suck. I'm the worst person that you might know. I wish i can turn back time. I wish i listen to my friend's advice. Nothing happens but almost happens. I believe that things might go worst if i dont think deeper. Just keeping myself alive, searching for things to light up my next day. Left all the unfortunate things. DOnt ever believe in person that we not even sure about it. This will be my lesson and it wont be repeated again. This is my promise. Thanks friends. Thanks for being there when i needed. There's no way i can ever repay back. Thanks!!!

Which one should i have?

Its been a long time since the last updated. So, its been a lot of story that i like to share about.
The first things is i just cannot wait till this November. New Moon (Twilight) coming out.. Just can't wait. The first twilight movie i really didn't watch it last year. Its like almost a year than i catch up the movie. So, i download the ebook, i want to buy those series of book, but not now. Wait until there's a wholesale mph books open. I will definately gonna buy those book for my collections. Edward is so adorable and Bella is so innocent and i dont know how to describe. I wish to be like Bella and have a lovely bf like edward. I read have of the books and i think i'm learning a lot of things from this book. A lot. believe me. U should read a book, not just this twilight series. Any books can. Just read and you will understand why people should read books. After a few week living myself in the fantasy world. I left all the things that i should do and should finish out for thisfew weeks. I've been missing in my own world, i think i'm still on the twilight journey. I could resist think about iot day and night. But life must go on. I have to catch back all the thing that i've missed. I hope i can do it.

Every day, since the last month. I just bringing my laptop back and fort from the office to home. And my laptop is like more then 10kg. I really think that it is to heavy and the laptop kind of want to smash up the laptop so that i can buy new. I kept on searching a new brand of laptop that i've should buy.
Acer : At first i think about buying acer. But is not recommended.
MacApple: definately so expensive. I just an ordinary worker that dont have less paycheck
SOny:Design is great, but also expensive. Twice price of acer and compaq
Dell: my sis already buy it. Idont want her to said i'm copy cat.
Compaq:DEsign same as Dell. Not really what i've expected of
samsung: really like those design but i dont know how good is the inside.
hp:definately want to buy but not sure yet which model.
So, which one that i should buy? my dad already bug me to buy. He want to take my previous laptop for him to do work. I dont know when i will decide. I haven't decide and i dont know what really good and bad. I just listen what people said but how good or how bad is it how we should know? I'm really bad at making decision. I think until forever i wont decide and i will use the old laptop forever and ever. It makes me frustrated then i decide to look at new camera sony alpha. really nice. taking all the brousherabout that alpha things. huh? different thing plan to buy then suddenly decide different thing. huh.. so? just wait until new update u know what i buy at the end. thanks for ready. Bye. XOXO gossip girl..

How on the earth you can live with pretending????

Hello guys, this week is really make me sick. Hehe.. Ya.. The life is not as good as what you planning form the beginning. It wouldn't ever be. There must be up and down.

Back to the topic how on the earth you can live with pretending???

I'm honestly gonna say this, i'm not good at pretending. If i really dont like something, even my word shows, ya ya.. its nice. But my face, really obvious saying, that really not nice. My friends always notice, They say, "hey aimi, Your face just cannot hide what you're feeling right now. Stop denying". Hehe.. Ya. i admit, even if with the people around me, if i really dont like because of something that he/she done to me, or to my friends. I really shows its. And i dont like to pretend to be good with someone that my heart said no. Because personnally its hurts more if i try to pretend. Better i show what i feel and what will come next, it will come, what ever the ways it want to be.

Same things, if i have a feeling with someone, that i really like. I like to show, I like this person to notice. Hehe.. Even i dont like if other people do it to me. But once, he shows that he dont like, that not makes me to give up. I wont show off again, but then i try to give hint in other way.. Hehe.. Ya i know its suck.. hehe.. So? What should i do? I just cannot pretend to not like somebody if i really like him? haha.. Whatever right? Hmmm.. Just feeling good after typing few words in my blog. Even no one wolud read it. I read it by myself then. chow~~

I'm, I miss and I want......

I dont know what to write, i dont know what to say.
I'm lonely.
I'm phetatic.
I'm useless.
I'm nobody.
I'm feeling bad.
I'm bored.
I'm ridiculus.
I'm mad.
I'm fed up for everything.
I'm hoping for something, but for sure i don't deserved it.
I'm daydreaming.
I'm jealousy about people around me.
I'm ugly. I have this eye bag that i hate it so much.
I'm in mess.
I'm clumsy.
I miss my old days.
I miss my friends.
I miss to have a boyfriend.
I miss my high school.
I miss my buddy.
I miss everything.
I want to become younger.
I want to enjoy my life.
I want to be success.
I want to be stood up.
I want people care about me.
I want somebody beside me.
I want to become rich.
I want to be pretty.
I want to be style.
I want to become myself.But i hate myself.
I want people hear what i'm trying to say.
I want to return back time.
I want to take back all my words.
I want to be close to somebody
I want to be love.
Shit. wtf.
I just cannot have what i really want.
I just become what i'm till the end of my life. -n-

I hate that Saloon!!!!!!!!!

Last Saturday, i went to a saloon located at ole-ole seksyen 18 Shah Alam,
The saloon name.. ooops!! cannot tell but actually it is the one and only saloon at that building so u can guess.. The think is, i want to rebond my hair. Because my hair is really suck.. and i'm not satisfied with how i look without wearing tudung.

So i when to this saloon with my lovely friend Sara.. who else man.. I paid RM150 for my short hair for rebounding and guess what did i get? Ya. at first really nice, my hair is smooth but i didn't realize something. So when i went back home, then i realize something.. tang tang tang..
I realize that the rebound only at the surface of my hair.. but inside the hair is like ****.. omg.. i really cannot accept it.

So after 4 days.. i went back to that saloon and i claim about what happen to my hair to the person that responsible for my hair. I show how my hair have been done by that person. and actually there is an arguement said that

Y : u wear tudung, that's why ur hair like..
Aimi:for these few days, i just sit at home and not going anywhere how come i wear tudung? (omg.. please dont blame my tudung k)..
Y : just right after u finish rebound u wear tudung right?
Aimi : ya.. (it's compulsary to wear tudung..hello!!!) but then i when straight back home. i guess shouldn't been any effect right?
Y: nevermind we try to wash ur hair first and dry it, and see what happen.

ok i fine with that, they wash my hair and blow. u know, what happen during the washing hair, their talk to each other using i dont what languange. Sara said its called reverse languange. and come on, i can understand ok.. u think i'm that stupid? Sara also understand what their speak.
so i'll translate to u guys..
G: Who did her hair?
Y: ____ did my hair.
G: really? he did alone meh?
Y: he did with me. but that part he do it alone.
actually there's lots more but they spoke to slow, i couldn't hear.

After washing, and blowing time, they said.. 'ok jerk'.. its normal..
HELLO!! i paid 150 and i get this stupid thing man? and then the stupid boss come and see the chaos that i've made. YA the boss also like 2x5. She even dont want to speak with me. What the hell of this person is? didn't respect me as a customer. And she spoke chinese with her employement. Oh god.. u think i dont know mandarin meh? i took mandarin class ok..
Boss:see what happen when u not doing things right
Y: ....
Boss: .......
the ..... means she didnt speak anything just touch my hair...
The boss went away.
G: actually ur hair already damage. SO if u insist to repair, we'll put a lot of chemical to ur hair and make ur hair much more damage then now
Aimi: nevermind.. i dont want to.(and i through the towel at my hair to the floor.actually is accidently fall.)

and i felt that the girl think i want to amok at there. and u should see my face.. i just wanted to cry but i hold it. come one man.. i cannot just cry there.. erk..
The story just not end there ok..

Then at the same time, sara also doing her hair, wash , blow and cut. RM40. Same price when i go to thomas and guy hair saloon. but not as professional as Thomas and guy man..
So sara request to have boss as for cut her hair
Aimi: u trust her to do cut ur hair?
Sara: ya.. i think she's ok.
Aimi: eii.. not for me..

Boss come, do sara hair.. have a conversations with sara. and i just sit beside her.
conversations with the boss and sara,
Boss: actually u friends hair already damage.
Sara: ?
Boss: nothing we can do about it.
Sara: owh..
Boss: She used the lower class of product, cannot compare to ur one, that we used L'oreal product.. she paid less ma.. that's make her hair much more damage.
Aimi: HELLO!!! (i'm here, u are mengumpat me.. stupid.. why dont u talk straight to my face) is not my first time doing rebound.. i have try it once, but not like this.
Boss: U hair is damage at the inner site. The surface of ur hair is not damage. (didn't dare to look at me)
Aimi: no.. i think my hair both same inside and out before the rebounding..
Boss: no, is not.. (how do u know? u dont even do my hair)

I can hear she talking about me, but why she dont want to straight facing me and talk to me? She really didn't respect me as a customer. come on man.. u can said to me politely.. is this how u treat ur customer? i think that will be my last time doing my hair at that saloon.. Then after finish, they didn't even say sorry or what ever.. and i just left with the feeling that i couldn't describe.. maybe i mad, maybe i sad been treat like this, dont know la.. i thought of going to report at the jabatan pengguna.. but i think it too much.. nevermind la.. i'm actually really particular with what i pay for.. I pay for RM150 and i expect more then what they can gives.. maybe next time i have to pay more to have much more satisfactions. I hope i can get rid of this.. i dont want to think about it. i dont want to..

The moral of the story is, if u want to do a business.. what ever business, please please please do respect ur customer, and always make sure the satisfactions of the customer. if customer satisfied, of course u will to..remeber customer always right!!! thanks for reading.. assalamualaikum. ma'al salamah ilaliqa..