I wish i can turn back time...

I'm alone in my room, switch on the TV but doesn't really watch it. Open books but not really read it. Buy some food but do not eat it. What the hell happening or bothering me lately? Have you ever felt that before? Actually i'm kept wondering what is the things that make me felt this way. what i have done? I think all this thing might fade away after i meet my close friends. But actually it only for a short time. But when go back be alone, this thing kept bothering me. Actually there's a bad thing that i've done, and when i told this to my friends, it doesn't felt relieve at all, it makes me felt worse. I'm suck. I'm the worst person that you might know. I wish i can turn back time. I wish i listen to my friend's advice. Nothing happens but almost happens. I believe that things might go worst if i dont think deeper. Just keeping myself alive, searching for things to light up my next day. Left all the unfortunate things. DOnt ever believe in person that we not even sure about it. This will be my lesson and it wont be repeated again. This is my promise. Thanks friends. Thanks for being there when i needed. There's no way i can ever repay back. Thanks!!!